Everything, but this…

He called out my name…
With a precision beyond doubt…
Yet…
“No, it’s not me”…I quickened my steps,
As if I were running for life…
Pretending not to hear!

He decided not to call me again…
Instead, came in my way…
Stood like a wall that wouldn’t shake…
Engulfing my very being!
“Where can I flee from Your presence?”
I felt a chill down my spine…

And, as His eyes met mine,
I stared at the floor..
My head hung in shame!
“Would you give this up?”
His familiar voice rang in my ears…
Expectant of an answer…

“Take everything- my belongings,
my talents…my breath…
But…not this!”
I was defiant…
I had made up my mind…
I was not going to give this up!

“But, you promised you would!”
The reminder cut thro’ my heart like a sword…
“I can give up everything but this…”
I groaned…
“Tell me, why won’t you?”
He was persistent!

“It’s gonna hurt…real bad!”
I was crying…

Thought my heart would burst…
Silence weighed upon me…

He was waiting…may be, even wishing
That I saw he collected each tear drop of mine!

“Take everything- My Comfort,
My Peace, My Joy…My Son!”

“Would you trade your pain for these?”
This time, He was pleading!

A glance at His merciful face…
“What am I, that You are mindful of me?”

I flung open my arms…
My knees hit the floor…

“Nothing can separate you from My love”
The promise came to life!

I felt light…free…happy!

I had given it up, before I even knew it!